Some weeks ago, I myself was diagnosed with a terminal Cancer.
I want no comments about that, but what follows you MAY comment on.

My Little doughball - about 5 years old now, I found at the side of the road
while out walking.
Her left hip was broken - maybe a traffic accident - she was just WEEKS old
and really TOO young to have been away from her mother.
I suspect she was the escapee from a deliberate drowning of a whole litter
and had wandered into traffic. She was in a terrified state and very poorly.
I wrapped her in my tracksuit and went to find a veterinary.
She had to have extensive and expensive care for two weeks in an Animal
Hospital.
She recovered quite well - and now you would never imagine that she has no
bones connecting that hip - they were all completely excised - the
shattering was really extensive. She has terriffic muscular control -
slightly hirply - but only evident when she runs.
Until VERY recently, she enjoyed rushing about the house - a totally indoor
cat - and clambering onto window sills to sing and snarl at the many local
pigeons.
She has many strings that she loves to chase and a lot of other toys.
I spend about an hour devoted to her fun each day.
She follows me EVERYWHERE in the house and each night settles with a seeming
Joy, in my armpit (after a lot of licks and kisses at my lips) for the
night.
She LOVES having her tummy tickled and often turns over in front of me when
I'm watching TV - tail wagging furiously - and if I DONT tickle her, I get a
load of complainant singing.
However -
Since my own diagnosis, this little unremarkable looking Tigress has been
coming to me and sitting looking up at me, wanting to be picked up and just
cuddled for just a few minutes. She NEVER did that before.
WHEN I do pick her up, she immediately gives me a face rub with her own,
starts purring VERY loudly and then I get a real long Paw massage - looks
into my eyes and moves her head all over my face - really gently - and she
is normally quite an aggressive little animal that does NOT take kindly to
being petted unless SHE invites it.
Last few weeks - she has taken to coming and sitting in front of me and
looking at me - directly STARING right at me and wanting to be picked up.
Once up, (lots of "singing" too - that she was never wont to do - she starts
pawing massage on my chest and neck - and the "massage" continues for long
enough - then she just jumps off.
This behaviour has made me start thinking a lot about Cats and supposed
Mysteries - but the last week has been even MORE strange.
For a very ODD reason, my little Doughball Tigress has begun starting to
come and sit in front of me when I'm sitting in my chair - she starts to
"sing" - almost like little songs - but does NOT want to be picked up and
positively fights against any attempts to do so.
She just sits and sings at me.

Does she KNOW that I won'tbe with her too much longer? (She already has a
terrific home to go to)
I dont know what's going on.

I'm already in a very fragile state of mind because I know I'm not to be
about for much longer, but is it POSSIBLE that my darling little Doughball
knows it already and is in some kind of emotional state?

My Cat is to most people who have seen her - a very unattractive "Moggie"
cat - but to me - the most beautifull princess. Her eyes convey so MUCH love
and her songs lift my heart, but I weep for her obvious discomfort.
I have already arranged a Veterinary visit, but ANY advice would be
helpfull - regarding the Doughball ONLY - NOTHING about me - I already had
far too much.