how, how, how do you do it?

A while back I've found three kittens (about 4 months old) and I've
been crying since.  I got then TNR.   I went over to feed them often.
They are semi-feral (they would let me touch them because they know I
feed them now, but are not openly friendly).  I tried to find rescue
places to take them.. they have no room,  I tried, I tried to do
anything and everything.  Until I finally got used to the idea that
they were meant to be feral and at least found that someone else in the
neighbor close to them was feeding cats.

I finally found a home for one.  I took him to his new momma this
morning.  She has a small place, with a huge yard and a beautiful
calico cat that is an indoor-outdoor cat.   She promised to take good
care of the kitty.  So why am I so heartbroken?

I cried all the way there and back and I am still so worried.  Why?  He
is going to have a home, a warm place in winter, a meal every day.
Love, friendship, play.

I am praying that he doesn't sneak out before he is domesticated and
just take off and get lost.  I would never forgive myself!!

There, I needed to let that off my chest.

Thank you for listening