I know what you are going through i lost a young cat once when i was a
teenager, she was 18 months old, and I felt that the world was so
unfair as she had so much to give and was my best friend. It is such a
shame you lost him, it sucks i know.

please dontl think you cannot get another puss, you obviously have a
lot of love to give to a cat adn there are so many needy ones out
there who desparately need that love and a home and someone to care
for them. Please think about adopting one from a shelter who is maybe
2 or 3 years  old, there are several reasons for this;
1) they are the ones other people pverlook so much and they are always
left behind in favour of kittens, they are so hard to rehome purely
because of their age and this is no reason to overlook them
2) one problem with very young cats (2 years or less) is that they are
very curious about the world around them and are not very streetwise
and are more likely to get hit by a car on one of their expeditions.
an older cat is less active like that, more homeloving and composed (I
can't think of the best word for it, sorry, someone help) and they
suffer less from wanderlust so they are less likely to get into
dangerous situations or get hurt.
3) normally they will had been neutered/spayed already and so you are
saved from this expense and then have more money left over to spend on
treats and toys for them

please think about getting another,  possibly older, pusscat, think
about how much good you will be doing by taking one in, there is one
out there who is just waiting for you to rescue her from a shelter and
take her home to warm snug bed, a full plate of tasty food and a
lifetime of cuddles and love from someone she can trust and devote
herself to and help to get over previous pain. That someone can be
you.

bookie