oh were not fighting, and right, you use your hand as a pan.. your
skirt up to someone that you think will give you a dollar and you say..
hey big guy lemme' hold a dollah! little somethin' to straighten me up
here

I don't get offended too easily these days, I used to work in secondary
state schools (i think you call them public schools in the US) in some
really horrible areas with really horrible kids and so bny comparison
most things people say just roll off my back these days, particularly
if they do not know me. Working in schools makes you develop a really
thick skin. Also from reading your posts you are kind of fairly rude to
everyone even those who help you so when you try to be insulting to me
(which i assume you were) then i can''t take it personally as you are
like that to just about everyone. That is the thing; when people swear
(or 'cuss' as you put) it all the time it tends to lose it's
effectiveness and shock value and so the recipients no longer feel
insulted by your rages and just disregard them, it just starts to flow
over them and they igonre your language after a while, do you
understand? It is the same with kiddies i have taught; if you shout at
them all the time then theyget used to it and when you rae really mad
and start to shout at them again for somethign serious then they just
think "oh miss is just shouting again for no reason, let's just ignore
her" and your shouting does not have the desired effect any more, yes?

anyway, as to your question, no i am nto a beggar if that is what you
aer implying, i jus believe that if asomeone wants to help me out then
i am not going to say "no" as occasionally you need the help, but i
would not go out asking for it inthe street or in any other way. for
example; yesterday someone gave me a bag of kitten food because they
got it as a free sample from a cat food company and they know I have
cats and am on a low income (I have no problem admitting this, in the
UK teachers are on a pitiful wage despite being university graduates
and doing an extremely difficult job few others want to do, but do not
get me started on all that. Being on a low income does not make me a
bad person just a person who can't afford nice things, nothing to be
ashamed of). I am very grateful depiste the fact that my cat is not
able to eat this type of food (she has no teeth left, has to have very
mushy food) and so i will just give it to the cat shelter when i next
visit to cuddle the cats as they always have kittens there who need
special food. I would certainly not give the food back to my friend and
make out that I am insulted by her kind gesture as i would not want to
insult her by throwing it back in her face (not literally, that would
make a mess everywhere). Some times people give you somethig because
they like to give things as present and making others feel happy makes
them feel good too, i know how that feels, and so in that case giving
them their present or offer of help back would be too nsulting to
contemplate.

in essence, no man is an island and we do need help from our fellow
man/woman sometimes in life, we cannot exist in isolation. it makes me
wonder why you are so angry at someone who wants to help you and why
you are so offended by this and why you seem to see only a cynical
reason for their actions (that they want to make themselves look good
by being charitable to you), i woudl not be. Anyway if they have the
ulterior motive of wantgin to loko good by helonmg out others then who
cares? your cats get some free food out of it so why worry.
we do nto have the term panhandler in this country, we would probably
say beggar or something, but to be honest that is really no insult,
certainly not after some of the things some of my pupils have called me
anyway

i hope your cats and kittens are well and you are saving up your
pennies for them, post some pictures when you can
B