*hangs head* I was so busy getting cats and dog lined up to be taken
care of while we're out of town... I forgot about our newest member,
the betta fish. *sighs* Dammit, bad bad fishmom. I'll have to fix that
in the morning. And pray the fishie is ok. This sucks.

This is why I'm hesitant in keeping four pets and a baby. I loose my
head on a good day. (No I'm not pregnant yet... *sighs*) Not to
mention, I remember how much hell it was in keeping Eve out of the
water bowl. (The kid loved her cheetohs dipped in the dog's water) How
many times am I going to have the joy of picking cat poo out from under
a baby's fingernails... I know it's coming. I feel it deep in my bones.

I forgot today, that she was gone. Abi was discussing her aunt on
Jody's side. And I immediately instantly thought "we should visit, Eve
loves her Uncle Dan". It didn't hurt like I thought it would have.
Melancholy, and a bit sad but it was a sweet memory. But she did. There
weren't too many men she would go to, they were big, loud and had deep
voices. But Dan... zoom! *grin* It's ironic to note that he lost a baby
to SIDS before he married Jody's aunt. (I think it was SIDS... they
told me at the funeral (Eve's), I don't remember really)

We've been in Alberta since Monday. We won't be home until Tuesday. I'm
tired. Abi's tired, Jody's just irritable as all get out towards a
moron or two up here. Three weeks ago he spent a full week preparing
for this trip. It was hell enough that we opted to come along for this
one since Abi finished school May 27th. We're all ready to go home, but
even though we're exhausted we're handling it better than we would a
separation. For a couple of people that were having a multitude of
problems before the accident (we reconciled a few days before
actually... our last moments together with Eve were snuggling on the
couch watching tv) you wouldn't know it now. Even though we were making
up before, even the lingering problems and a few not so lingering ones
didn't matter, or failed to matter with bigger weights on our
shoulders. Or perhaps we were both eager to fix what's broken and
concentrate on our family. I wouldn't recommend the experience, but I'm
proud of us all the same.

*hugs* It's midnight local. I'm slugging off to bed. :)

Gracie
love ya'll