We'll see how we go. I've always wanted two kids, but much depends on Joel's
mental health. He has enough trouble coping with Cary, I doubt that he'll be
able to cope with two kids to look after at the moment.

I"m blaming this squarely on his abusive alchoholic dropkick of a
stepfather. I''d be the first one to admit that looking after a kid is
tiring, frustrating, never ending and thankless, but Joel is really *not
coping*. And as I said when i asked for purrs, its been very tiring for me
to deal with Cary, full time job *and* a husband who isn't coping with life.

I do feel alot better today, by the way. its amazing what purrs, 3 glasses
of champagne and 8 full hour sof sleep can do, but am still going to go to
my GP and see if I can't get a little something to make it easier for a
while.

Yowie