I am prone to it, unfortunately, especially during winter.  But
circumstances are making it worse.

Worrying about Cosmo.  I know he is actually doing so much better with
the fluids, and he has spent several mornings curling up in bed with
me like he used to do, but it is so hard dealing with this.  I get
depressed about the fact that we have to have him on the fluids now,
and I am so terrified I will screw up somehow and really hurt him
giving him the fluids (even though that would be pretty difficult to
do).  And that he is at this point tells me that we have turned the
corner in this CRF journey, and are heading down the road, closer to
the end than we were.

Yesterday, we ran Sabra into the vet because he appeared to be
blocking.  We called for a cab, waited half an hour; none came.  When
I called, they said they couldn't find one.  Probably no one wanted to
transport a sick cat.  We did the only thing we could do (as the vet
was just about to leave when we called, and said he'd wait an hour for
us to get there), and ran over to the bus stop, in the rain, and
caught the first bus, which got us to within four blocks of the
clinic.  We had to walk the rest of the way.  Luckily, I had thrown a
towel over the carrier so Sabra stayed dry.  The good news is he is
not blocked.  The bad news is he "probably" has cystitis.  The other
bad news is the vet, who has been excellent up to now, has started
acting strange.  He seems to act like, because Sabra is so "old", he
is not willing to do much.  He knows we are tight on money, and I
think that is part of it.  But it is upsetting me and I am on the
verge of changing vets, or taking Sabra to our other vets.  They are
wonderful, but they are getting very old, and probably won't be in
business much longer.

On top of that, DH and I are having serious problems that I won't go
into. But it is sending me into a deep depression, where I really
don't want to be.  Yet here I am.  I have to function because I have
to take care of the cats.  But that, and posting here, are about all I
seem to be able to do right now.

I'm sorry.  I guess I'm just feeling sorry for myself right now.  But
any purrs that things will get better in this household are welcomed
with tears.

Ginger-lyn

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