That's pretty horrible.

{{{{{{{{{{Adrian}}}}}}}}}}

I suffered from severe (situational) depression when I was married to an
abusive alcoholic.  Things got so bad that I took 50 valium and 50 sleeping
pills one night - the doctors in the ER said it was a miracle I lived.  I
was hospitalized for a time after that and one of the girls there caused me
to have an icy cold wake up call.  Her mother had committed suicide when she
was a child.  She had such severe depression and low self esteem (how bad do
you have to be that your own mother won't stick around to raise you?) that
she herself tried several times to commit suicide.

I took a good hard look at myself and realized how cowardly I was being to
try to escape a situation that my children would have been stuck in.  I
didn't think, beforehand, about the grief, pain, guilt, anger and suffering
I would leave behind me.  That was the thing that finally got through to me
and gave me the strength and courage to find a way out for myself AND my
children.

People feel sorry for the suicide victim, but I think that, in it's own way,
it's a very selfish act in that the victim doesn't/can't consider the pain
of the family they're leaving behind.  The family that has lost a loved one
by a deliberate act of murder.

I'm not saying that a suicide victim always has a choice in the matter, I
realize that depression can "take over" and become irresistible, but that
doesn't change the fact that his/her family lives with the grief and anger
for years afterwards.

I do feel sorry for a person who was taken from us by depression, but I feel
sorrier for his/her family.

Hugs,

CatNipped