>Tak,
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>Helen M
Yes, let us know how you are. Still purring for you.
Theresa
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>Tak,
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>Helen M
I'm sorry if I dropped off for a little bit. It didn't seem very
long. I couldn't think about anything but Betty. Each thought seemed
to take an eternity of tears, and time passed in an eyeblink.
Sleep was deep and exhausted and dreamless, not warm and purry like it
used to be. When I would wake up, I seemed to go instantly from
unconsciousness to profound loss. My heart was searching for Betty.
Today, I got up to no Betty, and I cried. But I went to work, and it
seemed eerily like a normal day. When I got home, I knew that Betty
wouldn't be there, but my eyes searched for Betty, and when she wasn't
there, there were tears, but tears had become normal now, like a smile
or a frown. I knew that she was gone, but my heart is still searching
for Betty.
Tish Silberbauer - 06 Jun 2006 02:54 GMT
Thanks for letting us know how you were getting on, Tak. Our thoughts
are with you.
Sounds familiar.
When Columbine went RB through being hit by a car it took me a week to
stop crying every time I thought of her, and a few weeks until I felt
even remotely normal.
It wasn't as traumatic when Ted went RB and I think that's becuase we
had both time to get used to the idea of Life After Ted and because we
could say goodbye, but it's nearly a year later and we (DH and I)
still shed the occasional tear because we still miss her. Spock and
Persephone are both wonderful in their own way, but neither are Ted
and there is still a big, Ted-shaped hole in our lives that we will
attempt to remedy one of these days.
I imagine it will be the same for you.
I nearly got DH a purry lap-cat (from a rescue organisation) for his
birthday yesterday, but decided against it as we are still building
here and all is mess and chaos. The resident cats are coping quite
well with the building, but I don't think they'd cope with the extra
stress of a new animal in the house.
Tish
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>or a frown. I knew that she was gone, but my heart is still searching
>for Betty.
Takayuki - 06 Jun 2006 03:17 GMT
>When Columbine went RB through being hit by a car it took me a week to
>stop crying every time I thought of her, and a few weeks until I felt
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>attempt to remedy one of these days.
>I imagine it will be the same for you.
I miss Columbine and Ted too, and I can see how having the kitten hit
by a car is especially traumatic - you get hit all at once. With
Betty, I still can't justify to myself what I've done, but I knew that
she was doomed. I knew I couldn't fix her, even though I desperately
wanted to. I knew she would be gone, even though I couldn't or
wouldn't imagine it.
Karen - 06 Jun 2006 03:43 GMT
>> When Columbine went RB through being hit by a car it took me a week to
>> stop crying every time I thought of her, and a few weeks until I felt
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> wanted to. I knew she would be gone, even though I couldn't or
> wouldn't imagine it.
It is in our nature to want to fix things, fight for survival of our
loved ones. Even if we know it is not possible. It doesn't need
justification. Nor does letting her go. It is like trying to hold
water. You did what was best. It will be hard for a long time, but not
impossible. To me the saddest thing is if someone doesn't care. You
cared because you love. That isn't a crime. It's the nature of love.
Marina - 06 Jun 2006 03:46 GMT
>> Tak,
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> or a frown. I knew that she was gone, but my heart is still searching
> for Betty.
Thanks for posting, Tak, though it may be hard. We were getting worried.
{{{{Tak}}}}

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Kreisleriana - 06 Jun 2006 05:15 GMT
>>Tak,
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>or a frown. I knew that she was gone, but my heart is still searching
>for Betty.
Thanks for checking in, Tak. All sounds very normal. Purrs
continuing for you, unabated.
Theresa
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Adrian A - 06 Jun 2006 12:15 GMT
>> Tak,
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> or a frown. I knew that she was gone, but my heart is still searching
> for Betty.
Just about everybody here knows what you're going through. It can take
weeks, if not months, for the tears to stop. The pain never really goes away
but it does become easier to bare. We're thinking of you, Tak, and we care
about you. I hope in time you'll be able to love another cat the way you
love Betty.

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SuzQ - 07 Jun 2006 13:02 GMT
Purrs that things get better.
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