I'm just posting this for whatever... expiation... might only get condemnation
from idiots though on a newsgroup

once upon a time, though... once upon a time, 4 years ago...

I just about always eat meals in front of the tv, two birds with one stone,
watch the news channels

but this August evening, I had my microwaved left-over spaghetti at the kitchen
table... why, I don't know except for some fate. The kitchen door was open.
Partway through, there was this plaintive wail. Any sensitive person could
innately feel the tone of it. A cat at the top stair, hesitant yet insistant,
asking.

I always had dogs, not cats. But there was a cat right there, on the porch
steps, wailing like that. I thought it was desperate, reverting to some memory
of when humans had fed it but forgetting about the humans who had abandoned it.

I had heard the maxim: feed a stray once and you end up owning it. But I
figured that I couldn't ignore this starving creature, which I sensed it was.
But still I thought I could do it just... once.

So I felt quite good about giving it the last third or so of my meal. Poor
kitty ate it all, so I went to the refrigerator and found some milk. Cat ate
that, too. So, I felt good - like some sort of mini-savior.

And you know, next morning that cat was still there. Naturally.

But I didn't want to be responsible for a cat, so I walked past it.

That night, I was going out to a bar/nightclub. The cat was there. So I gave it
('it' still) all my leftover hamburgers. When I came home, the cat was there on
the back porch. Imagine that.

I sat down to have a cigarette and look at the stars. Buit when I even looked
at the cat, the cat purred. It was lonely. When I leaned down to nuzzle the
cat, it nuzzled back but also bit the tip of my nose. I know it was because the
cat's emotions were overflowing. So I called it, "smoochie".

ah well... I type too much...

Cat was female, was pregnant, loved her

As a programmer, dotcom crash, jobs exported to India, no money

everybody says SPCA is okay, didn't know it is a sure kill shelter...

I didn't know

didn't know

curse me then

mother: Smoochie

kitties 5: Junior, Tiger, Blackie, Grey, Rocky kitties RIP I'm so sorry

Smoochie please for give me, please